That night when I said "I love you more than anything"
Not a word came out of your mouth.
An awkward silence arose from the sky and ripped us apart.
I tried wishing upon a glowing star,
But that star seemed to crash into earth and stop my heart and stop time itself.
It seems the world just stopped spinning and threw me off it's axis into space.
I'll suffocate eternally, internally.
I hear every single persons voice in my head all at once.
Yours is the softest but the one that hurts the most.
Yet you said nothing at all.
It feels like my ears are about to shatter from the inside and bleed out tears.
With my eyes closed I'll stretch out my hands
And with my last breath I'll beg you.
No, I'll ask you "just don't let me go."
It wasn't so much the lack of air.
It was how you shattered my heart
Like a flowered vase dropped from the tallest skyscraper.
But it doesn't ever hit the ground.
Every day you watch me break apart.
You stand there laughing.
But inside you must be hurting.
You have to be.
What if I fell into the sea so softly and preciously?
If somehow I wasn't destroyed on impact I couldn't face myself.
I couldn't face the world without you here.
I can't let go so you can't let go.
