In passing, I'll see you
and you'll see
the ghost of who I was
I'm shaking my sickly
frame under sheets of someone else
and it's desperate and it's violent,
but it's something that I'm used to
I'm frightened
and I'm hiding
from you
and people that we knew//
I'm on my way out//
I'll carry
my own torch
and drop it
burn myself alive
cause in my darkest hours/
I'll release my light
this riptide
this current
I'll swim
against until I'm dead
but I won't float
and I can't sink
'cause I won't
get off that easy//
I'm on my way out//
I'm not really here/
I'm just refracted light/
I'm the shadow in the water over everything/
you're a lucid dream/
you're a smoking gun/
a year of waiting and I'm still not hearing anything/
if I had a choice/
if I could see through you/
I'd let my darkness slip away and sing and bring in my light//
Fuck.
I'm on my way out