Текст песни downer girl - to forgetting how to love and knowing when to quit

when i was seven
i killed myself
i swallowed a box of pills
then i walked outside and died

and that was not the first
time
his hands on my thighs
and it wouldn't be the last time
i'd die just to rise

lying on the grass
the world was ringing in my ears
and now today i sit beside you
haunted by the same fears