Текст песни downer girl - planning funerals and laughing too hard at jokes that aren't funny

remember when you laughed about growing old?
as if you thought it was some kind of joke
i don't wanna see
a light inside your eyes
that is gone when tomorrow
pours in with sunlight

and i won't make it to your funeral
because i'll be too busy planning mine
we are not destined to die
we're destined to live
our whole damned
lives

and i won't make peace
with this
because i, i'm so mad
of all the things to take you out of here
why couldn't you have picked
the one
that took my hand