That voice of fear has vanished
Just like you were banished
From this world of ours, by your own hand
But you could not care less
I can only guess
Which wall was to high to climb ?
I know it’s hard from time to time
I had a lot to carry by myself but I was in self-doubt
Did I miss your helpless shout ?
This causes my desperation
I hate this state of mind
So my dreams end here
I try to stand tall but I crawl
Back in a deeper sleep I fall
Is it my guilt, my fault, my duty
That we didn’t meet for years
That I didn’t call or write you
I have no clue
Why I haven’t shifted gears
Now I (just) taste my tears
I haven’t felt guilty in the past
Cause time is a healer, and time runs fast
But now I blame myself for being absent
Was I not there for you at last
Now my chance has passed
This causes my desperation