I took a breath of the cold fresh air,
decisions had been made,
made without a choice.
This conflict can´t be solved,
it lies deep down there
anchored in my skin.
and you´ve predicted something
"we won´t get far with it,
in fact, you have been right"
I believed in your loyalty,
why did you take the best part of me?
To recover from you was not easy.
But this is just for me!
So I can cry,
so I can dance,
so I can shout out of joy,
because I have survived
despite grief and pain.
And I´m not yet
at the end, I know.
So I can stop drinking
to be again how I once was.
Why do I feel
so empty after all?
Although I know
that we lacked a foundation
I try to get up
and leave the wreckage
of the ship
that we called ours.
All the time
we lay side by side
no dream, no thought remained until now,
and from this - I understand existance is impermanent.
I hope there's more to come up,
at least my death will show.