Woven deep within my subconcious silently it waits,
this shapeshifting bulbous mass of dark energy
is ready for the match to strike
to ignite and invade, taking over me
at the meer sight of...
The fuse has been lit, the trigger sparked
Spectral convulsions in the dark
The visciousness spreading like a venom through my veins
internal paroxysms make me..
..Hallucinate violent reactions
these self depraving,
nightmarish visions in me,
Epileptic spasms in my minds eye
and screaming silently.
This blade will cut deeper into
the primal urge
from life I diverge
I will escape you.
Repulsive flashing images of destruction
split second frames before my eyes
Hands to my face, seizing,
cold fingers aching
to expell these illusions I fantasize.
Exit the realm of reality
compulsion towards self-excavation,
desecration and entropy.
Image ignites
combustion of the fire inside
the hate in my eyes
cloaked by the night
this disease in disguise
deeper I slice
cut you out.
I visualize cutting out the darkness within me
because the violence, it levels out the intensity.
These internal paroxysms, they plague my waking life
triggered by images that reflect the self-hatred inside
that I have kept buried.
