mysteria draws me back to mother mars
Earth won't hold me here
conscious turn to squirming hurt inside of me
the ever melting core
give away the ancestor's dream
avoiding suffering would set us free
give in to its gravity
back in this place where everything's familiar
a scent of a lost home
let him stay in bed it's safe and warm in there
waveless like his soul
close the door and say farewell
to what is meant to fall away
our stained hands
can't protect the innocence
our stained hands can't protect him
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fly the glider on your birthday's afternoon
at the foot of mount sadhana
sister's jealousy below the kite so high above
but then a blast takes it away
as it slowly disappears
laughter leaves the angel's throat
sardonic chill
feeding on your loss
the stone hit hard the back of your dear sister's head
now watch her topple over
a growing stain in virgo's golden hair
now you made your mother cry
take father's judgement
»dig a hole on the mountain's summit«
dig boy dig
you may not live until a shaft turns to a well
I grab the shovel and start to climb
soaked are the pants and flooded the eyes
father, father, forgive me
dig little boy
until the water comes
dig until the end of time
walls caving in
water breaks through
eyes open wide
learn how to beg
for the grace of mine
or learn how to die
hairy skin distant feet
dear god it's me
weary arms fly
heart beat appeasing
red stones float weightlessly
in dark skies
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overwhelming
it's good at last
so still
and leaden
the voices have paused
the script is ending here
maelstrom's eye inside of me
no movement no way
no time for yesterday
the octopus crawls out of your crown
unfolds to a sphere that's sinking down
his arms reach out
silent shout
enfolding shroud
ensoul this sprout
his insect eyes they hypnotize
a billion lights swirl in this hive
you dead cocoon
prepare to bloom
feel the shame that made you up
drink from salvation's cocktail cup
take a bow
throw the towel
what manifested here dissolves
your past collides with the not-known
the shell decays
shivering remains
you retrieved the lost home that is
you retrieved the lost home that is
you retrieved the lost home that is you
welcome to the end of the beginning of the end of the beginning of the end of the beginning of the end
