words shatter in my face
splintered in my tongue
riding one-wheeled chariots
when my heart gave out I took it to the shop
at the very very top of a temporary clock tower
the mechanist pulled me in close
checked my beard for silver threads
chugged puff steam from the pipe in his mouth
this one we can save
break through your unsuspecting victim
the consequence has run dry
you couldn't teach me how to say
black out pain
every symbol
I knew every word
I'm insane
I'll finish the motion
kill all emotion
I found a gun
I saw him cry
speaking
one sided anyway
leeches
I don't love you anyway
ruptured
bloodshot
cut your voice out of my throat
this ain't good
this ain't good
I feel it's my
part of myself that I find
when I'm blind
when I fall apart
teeth with crooked jaws biting at my skin lets me know I'm still here
the awkwardness of my silences turn days into dead leaves
I can't leave this cold room for the sight outside still scares me
I didn't see the movie but I know how it ends
scratch the itch that cuts you in a way
when it comes again
once I'm fine
imagine the pain
crossing out your name
lost pages say
we gain nothing from me breathing
when I'm lonely
I'm unfixable
I'm unfixable
when I'm alone
