The more I figure out
where I wanna go
The more I loose my way
With a monkey on my back
and the taste of cheap wine in my mouth
The older I get
The harder I try
No more compromise or
''just gettin' away with it''
But the clearer everything gets
the more I loose my sense of reality
Everything runs in circles
seems to last for eternities
It's been one of those days
one of those endless trials
And I can't get no sleep
and I can't get no sleep
but don't be concerned
I will be undressed soon
But the clearer everything gets
the more I loose my sense of reality
And all the ''have done's'' and ''shouldn't have done's''
are haunting through my mind
but I don't f**kin' care anymore
I just don't care anymore
'cause it's my party
and I cry if I want to
Cry if I want to
Cry if I want to
I could be this I could be that
but you'll never know who I am right now
But the clearer everything gets
the more I loose my sense of reality
And if I'd chose to wear the same face
Over and over again
I wouldn't recognise myself anymore
I've never worn a life like this
I could bare it all
But this is getting too hard...
But the clearer everything gets
the more I loose my sense of reality
