The answers won't come to mind
Though I want it so badly
I can't seem to get it right
Even though I dream about it all the time
These things I anticipate
I strangle myself
Isn't this what they?
Isn't this what I want?
*Undo and undress
I curl up naked on my bed
Close my eyes, feel my breath drawn into me
Undo and undress
I can feel happiness inside me
it tickles my stomach
When I start to doubt myself
A black hole appears on the surface
Shoveling diamonds into it
Endlessly draining, and waiting for the lights to turn on
I'm feeling exhausted
How much more can I take?
Making me bored and numb
It doesn't work on me
**Undo and undress
I look up at the ceiling
Bare skin touches the floor, it makes me feel alive
Undo and undress
I can feel happiness inside me, it's the beginning and the end