i don’t think i’m tortured enough
at this sink, still coughing you up
why can’t you leave me alone
i just want you to leave me alone
her eyes are looking at me
and i’ve tried to see what they see
why can’t you be my mirror
she thinks i won’t see right through her
standing at the edge of providence
barely able to take in all of this
somewhere between the summer and nineteen
i was old enough to want this
but far too young to choose
spent days out on the shelf
found new ways of hurting myself
why can’t you see right through me
these lies come too damn easy
so i am shutting the door
i won’t try to call you anymore
because this was never worth it
i can’t remember ever feeling worth shit
standing at the edge of providence
barely able to take in all of this
somewhere between the summer and nineteen
i was old enough to want this
but far too young to choose
and now I’m stuck here with faces from last year
i was old enough to want this
but young enough to lose
if you leave it up to me
then I will make this up to you
i’ve had my head in the ground for far too long
i had forgotten about all the time i stole
i still believe in your words that keep my feet on the path
i swear to god i can change if you give me the chance
leave it up to me
and i’ll make this up to you
