Haven't sensed them long ago:
Integrity and assurance
And a plain peace of mind.
Wondering, there was a time,
When all my feelings used to dance
And I was not so blind.
Patiently waiting that life will present me
With one more chance
Not to lose in this self-fight.
Don't know, where's the start
And what is the root
Of thinking that broods
And tears me apart.
Self-persuaded state
That one day I'll see:
My fragile world bleeds
And it is too late.
I tried so much times to fill up my
Partial I
That I despise.
But every day
It stays the same:
I finally face imminence of the void.
Strange feeling
That all has no meaning
And panic arises to stab from behind.
Achievements have low price
But fails are counted twice.
Feels like disease:
That last mistake will make you least.
Afraid of taking charge,
'Cause bars are always too large.
All round is wrong,
This stupid world i don't belong.
Even can't fall in love.
Does it mean: it's enough
And I have just to fully change
My thoughts and range?
But every day
It stays the same:
I finally face imminence of the void.
Strange feeling
That all has no meaning
And panic arises to stab from behind. (x2)
So I'm
One by one with painful memories,
Hardly keeping self from madness.
Still arguing with the emptiness,
Be or not...
Patiently waiting that life will present me
With one more chance.
