i have to quit
acting like im happy
the things everyone wants
are depressing
they're making me
confused
do you need help being lonely?
i have to stay
acting sad, you see
a boring relationship
could fit beautifully
into my lack of trust
failures.
can you help me not trust you?
failures.
maybe if i despised you enough
we could fuck every single day
for years on end
if that doesn't kill you
at least being suicidal
might fill the holes
in our intimacy