A vast ache shivers my flesh
Noises interfere with the joy of my indulgence of self
Fear devastates the memory of past
When there was a time of control
Not shattered bricks from a shattered picture
The great grief of one self is a reflection of one's affliction
The ever knowing emotion we have named subconsciousness
For the day will still be as grey and empty as the next
No light to be seen nor any sign of relief
The stranglehold of my mind continues to elude me
Leaving me in a space of darkness
A time of regret
Shattered pieces from a shattered life
I weep in the smile of an insane
Cold caresses carve 'I will love myself forever'
But forever is lost
Therefore I shed the tears of blood upon an open grave