I turn on every light in my house at night
I make it so bright so there’s nowhere to hide
but the shadows find their way into my mind
I put my favorite records on
to try and chase that song off of my tongue
but when the records done it digs itself back up
I tore up all the photographs
and every letter that you sent
at least that’s what I tell myself I did
but like some kinda cursed artifact
something always makes it back
and I find it in the place where it was hid
by me long ago one day
and I know I should throw it away
But I never take my best advice
I never think I should think twice
I always end up on this sinking ship
but if you want to be a captain like me
you know you’re gonna get lost at sea
and you know you’ll end up sleeping with the fish
I draw sator squares above my doors
and no omens get ignored
I pay careful attention to my creaking floors
I painted all my mirrors black
So I’d never see you looking back
but everyday the paint it peels and cracks
Most of my best friends are ghosts
but you’re the one I miss the miss the most
and I wish that I could wish your soul away
But I tell stories about you
until everyone I know starts to miss you too
and your spirit’s getting stronger everyday
I know I should let go and move on
But I don’t think that I’m that strong and