Inside my insecurities I hide my imperfections
I find my blurred reality inviting (?)
Getting lost and being chancy and get off on rejection
I only feel alive
When I
Can't have it, God I want it, need it, breath it
My addiction
So wrong that's why I like it, taste it, crave it
My affliction
The loving
The waiting
The thrill of going crazy
It's my next obsession
I feel these vacancies of mine with unhealthy fascinations
It's so clear I'm never satisfied, it's blinding
Too late; no matter how I try, can't break my fixation
I only feel alive
When I
Can't have it, God I want it, need it, breath it
My addiction
So wrong that's why I like it, taste it, crave it
My affliction
The loving
The waiting
The thrill of going crazy
It's my next obsession
Suffocating in the sensation
And its irrational
Can't have it
I want it
I need it
I breath it
The loving
The waiting
It's driving me crazy