Текст песни пять утра - боль

You keep me awake
And i want to sleep
You torture me with your nightmares with your very presence
You hold me and you cut my hands
Opening every vein like a new book
I would like to leave but I cannot
You hold me with your love
I hate you and I love you at the same time.
I get up in the morning like a dead person, I can't even pour myself coffee
My eyes hurt looking at you
It's just unbearable to endure all this pain and tears every day.
Store all your tantrums in a chest made of my soul
I myself am beginning to believe that God is the devil
I cut my own hands with a blunt blade, long and painful, but I succeed.
And you manage to fall in love with someone else the very next day,
Any awkward pause in our conversation and you already think about something else
And I just stand in silence and think