Текст песни Олег Хаславский - Когда-то мечтал состариться...

Once dreamed of growing old and finally turned gray slightly
Having learned on itself what love is loneliness and longing
And no longer believe in the word but still believe in the word
Not being Orpheus repeatedly descended to hell
And there I saw a lot of this
What too many know and everyone is silent
Silent because life drags in like a drowning man - funnel
They are silent because they should not be torn where thin
And there is nothing more subtle than an ordinary soul -
Little gin in a vessel sealed by a wax of silence
Doomed to Slow Feral
In silence
Who goes the distance without fear
Life is changeable and still long
And the bonds break sometimes more painful than the ligaments
The hapless runner
And before inevitability we are like delinquent children
In front of a kindergarten teacher
There is nothing to be done - it is written in kind
And we are responsible
The silence is broken by the growing noise of rain
Mimicking with ease all existing sounds
To conversations and trampling screams and groans and knocks
Up to the roar of a nail driven into the wall
This is very alarming, but peace is not expected anyway
I want too much and therefore owe much
Too tightly connected with past ambiguous memory
And so I’m always bifurcating like that
Did not live up to maturity
I choke on freedom like a stolen dog
In front of a memory mirror, I am hopelessly alone
And it can’t be broken either with a hand or a glass or a cane
In front of the mirror of memory I am defenseless and naked
From him nowhere except in him - backward
Of all your Lord blessed people
The most comforting memory - and the damn
There is no reason to repent
And confession is not a complaint but repentance is not nonsense
I sin in many ways in which I will repent and repent
Sinful and always hoping for a miracle
And plunging to the darkest bottom
I think - finally, the long-awaited happiness - it