Текст песни Лиля Брик - Слишком человеческое

I was not ever easy ,
and I was always afraid of the pain .
And because almost always
I sought it
on their own.

I do not see anyone in front of me ,
I 'll blame your birth,
you seem so sick
to me
and the guilty
in admiration .

I - it's forever ,
and it's too painful.