I don’t say much to anyone
I’m always lost inside my vacant mind
I imagine everything
Strolling around with childlike innocence and ignorance
I imagine everything
And it weighs me down into myself
In my youth I could have conquered the world
Been the light that’s lacked for years and personified endless love of life Bursting with inspiration
Unafraid of conversation
Naïve and blind to the cruelty of time
Adolescence came and went
And it changed the way I felt about everything: the world. Love. Life
It left me speechless and I can’t go back
So I don’t say a word
I’ve tried to curb my lonely life, but the sun don’t shine on endless night And sleep can’t keep me temperate
I wonder where the time went
And when all my words will spill out of my head, through my voice, to you
Come to me
I will not speak
Breathe for me
Always in fear
I never mention all the words in my head
I’m too inept so I just smile and nod instead
But sometimes I don’t even manage that
Honestly
Fuck
To all my friends: I’m sorry
I never knew that I could be this haunted
Screaming in these rooms just have my voice heard
I guess I’m just another awkward kid
On the cusp of potential I’ll never reach
I’ve tried to change, but I’ll always be this way
Honestly
