never picked for schoolyard games
i was the child pariah you laughed at when my eyes betrayed the fact that i was sad
although i tried so hard to fall into place and keep a confident smile on my face
please accept my humble thanks
for all the gifts you've given me
i keep them all in pristine form
i take them with me everywhere
hid inside my books and dreams
i befriended many monsters and enlisted them as escorts
between my house of horrors and the institutes of insensitivity and intolerance
once again my gracious thanks
for everything you've left to me
although it's heavier than granite
i take it with me everywhere
and so for now i thrive and fly in this illusory sky
but i'm weighted down for the way down
the way down
the way down
yes, even now i cry as i climb
because i've no doubt
i'm weighted down for the way down
the way down
the way down
late to bloom too little room
in my awkward body for my uncomfortable soul
please respect my disrespectful thanks
for all the shit you've given me
i take it with me everywhere
i take it all everywhere
and so for now i thrive and fly in this illusory sky
but i'm weighted down for the way down
the way down
the way down
yes, even now i cry as i climb
because i've no doubt
i'm weighted down for the way down
the way down
the way down
as for my crimes
what can i say?
you say they've paid
i say i'm weighted down for the way down
the way down
the way down
